[She shouldn't have snapped. Sayaka knows that. She'd never say it but she knew. Ever since Mami had told Sayaka what happened to her and then Madoka confirmed it--a sick feeling was present in her mind. Like thorns that had grown out of nowhere. She managed to keep it down for the most part. Now...it feels like the thorns were biting deep.

Realizing she was dead hurt. Finding out the truth about the magical girls soon after made her head ache. Then hearing what happened to her? Maybe it was a miracle Sayaka hadn't broke down sooner.

Nobody told her about the relationship between Soul Gems and witches. She didn't have hers so there's no danger for the others. For now.]

But I already became one.

[She bites her tongue. She had meant to say that she could do by herself but that was the truth. Sayaka needed to do this alone. She had to. Maybe this was her punishment for being so weak.]

If I can stop the shadows and the transfer student then--[She could show everyone that she's not just a waste of time. She stops herself.] It hurts. I could have killed my best friend, someone who's never hurt anyone, and I'd never even know.