None of it was her fault, but it didn't stop the ache or the remorse. It was the most horrifying thing to feel in the world. To realize that an entire family could be destroyed for such selfish reasons. And here, all along, like usual, Yuuki was a mere pawn on a giant chess board and again the last to know.
He could ask her not to cry, but it was near impossible not to.
Her hand released him and she slowly drew back. Both arms hung limp and lifeless at her sides. What could she possibly say to him now?
"Although that person is my fiance... and we are both from the same family... after all of this time, Zero knew him better than I did."
The admission was harsh and it hurt. In the end it was truthful, though. The entire time she lived in that manor she had spent trying to better understand Kaname, and that impenetrable sadness that surrounded him daily. It had always been impossible from the start, hadn't it.
Then another thought...
"If this is really the afterlife, then...does that mean we failed?" Her fingers spasmed and twitched at her side. How foolish she must have appeared. A hopeless, silly girl who hadn't been able to accomplish a single thing. Damn it...
"Sara-san... must have died, then, too." After all it had been his entire purpose for his sudden appearance at the association. Although Yuuki felt no attachment to Sara, particularly when in comparison to the person who stood before her right here, the fact of the matter was that it went well beyond her and even them.
"How many other, now, I wonder. And now, Kaname..."
He would succeed. Somehow, although maybe it was self-centered, she didn't believe that anyone would have the ability to stop him, outside of her, and maybe Zero. And if she was dead, and Kaname's purpose had been to kill the pureblood... would Kaname have lifted his hand against even her?
The elusive memory of the hunters and the guns stirred within the back of her mind, but she couldn't concentrate upon it long enough to grasp a full picture. Instead it receded.
No...
Both arms lifted to cradle her head, before she knelt down. This was too much. It couldn't possibly be reality. Even after all of the terrible things Kaname had done and the crimes he committed, she couldn't believe that he would harm her, despite what he had said that one time in what felt like so long ago. Yet here she was, whether by his hand, or the hunters, along with Zero too, and after all these bitter bitter harsh realities.
"I can't accept this. I can't..." Even worse than her own presence- "And the fact that Zero is here too. I just can't."
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He could ask her not to cry, but it was near impossible not to.
Her hand released him and she slowly drew back. Both arms hung limp and lifeless at her sides. What could she possibly say to him now?
"Although that person is my fiance... and we are both from the same family... after all of this time, Zero knew him better than I did."
The admission was harsh and it hurt. In the end it was truthful, though. The entire time she lived in that manor she had spent trying to better understand Kaname, and that impenetrable sadness that surrounded him daily. It had always been impossible from the start, hadn't it.
Then another thought...
"If this is really the afterlife, then...does that mean we failed?" Her fingers spasmed and twitched at her side. How foolish she must have appeared. A hopeless, silly girl who hadn't been able to accomplish a single thing. Damn it...
"Sara-san... must have died, then, too." After all it had been his entire purpose for his sudden appearance at the association. Although Yuuki felt no attachment to Sara, particularly when in comparison to the person who stood before her right here, the fact of the matter was that it went well beyond her and even them.
"How many other, now, I wonder. And now, Kaname..."
He would succeed. Somehow, although maybe it was self-centered, she didn't believe that anyone would have the ability to stop him, outside of her, and maybe Zero. And if she was dead, and Kaname's purpose had been to kill the pureblood... would Kaname have lifted his hand against even her?
The elusive memory of the hunters and the guns stirred within the back of her mind, but she couldn't concentrate upon it long enough to grasp a full picture. Instead it receded.
No...
Both arms lifted to cradle her head, before she knelt down. This was too much. It couldn't possibly be reality. Even after all of the terrible things Kaname had done and the crimes he committed, she couldn't believe that he would harm her, despite what he had said that one time in what felt like so long ago. Yet here she was, whether by his hand, or the hunters, along with Zero too, and after all these bitter bitter harsh realities.
"I can't accept this. I can't..." Even worse than her own presence- "And the fact that Zero is here too. I just can't."