[ Yuri takes the hit too, slamming into the door but holding onto the frame to make sure that she doesn't fall through. She can't let Kohaku go with her. Instead of attacking him again, she just ends up screaming at him, ignoring any pain from the kick or hitting the door as a result. ]

Just stay down if you're going to get involved, idiot! Why the hell do you follow me anyway!? I haven't been able to do anything but lose everyone! Why the hell would you follow me knowing that you probably won't make it!? If I'm the only one left every time no matter how hard I try to protect everyone, why!?

[ Despite that she played the part of a good leader, and usually did a fairly decent job, Yuri's confidence in her abilities as a leader have never been particularly high. She just rarely voiced it, because that wasn't what people needed to hear. They needed someone strong, someone who could protect them. That was the person Yuri wanted to be, so it was how she acted. And for a while, she even believed it too, but the further into this hole they got, the less she was able to cling to the idea that she was capable of doing this. The more people she lost, the more she questioned just why everyone kept following her. The more people she lost, the more she questioned why she kept trying to protect everyone if she was the one who always ended up being protected, like Kohaku was trying to do now. Why, when she was such a failure, did people keep jumping into the fray because of her? Why did people keep getting hurt protecting her? Why was she always, always the only one left standing when the help arrived and things were finally whatever screwed up version of "safe" they were supposed to be?

Why was it always the people she loved that ended up having to pay the price?

Yuri clutched the door, practically shaking as she tried to control herself, but it wasn't working. She was all too obviously barely holding on. ]