afterlogs | closed;

Entry tags:

closed;

Who: Jean, Marco.
What: First date, wow awkward.
Where: The stream.
When: The day after the sleepover.
Warnings: generally being awkward over feelings, gross sloppy makeouts, nsfw content.

[After twister at that sleepover things had happened and feelings had been exchanged. Jean had wanted to sort them out sooner but…

Where they really dating? It felt so strange to say he was dating his best friend, they had been best friend for over three years now.. These feelings didn’t just occur either, they had been festering for quite some time now… How could.. they not? Marco was his closest, most supportive person Jean could ever ask for, they both wanted the same things (or mostly the same things,) they would have a future together whether romantic or not—it would be a bond that would last forever.. In a world where no one’s guarantied anything it felt soothing. Nothing was unbearable as long as they were both alive, right? Guess they weren’t really alive anymore..

A sigh, he'd been waiting a whole hour early at the bench on the bridge above the stream where they were supposed to meet for their date. Traditional, that’s how Jean liked it…
He needed time alone with Marco.]

H-hey.. [Giving his new ’boyfriend’ (wow, is this really real?) a soft smile. This isn’t anything new, Marco and Jean always do things together so why does it feel so different?]

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Hey! Sorry I kept you waiting... [ Or so it seemed. Marco hadn't wanted to be late for his date with Jean, but even half an hour early, Jean was there. ]

How are you? [ Marco blushes, joining Jean at the bench. He's not really sure what to say for these things. He'd been asked on dates a couple of times back in their trainee days, but none of them felt like this. No one else makes Marco feel so warm and comfortable-- no one knows him better than Jean. ] Um, did you sleep alright?

You didn't keep me waiting. [He feels his skin growing so warm under the sight of the other, thankfully it was September, the weather a little on the cooler side making the warmth feel welcome and nice.

Marco had been the only thing on his mind for almost 24 hours now.. Such young conflicting feelings, all Jean honestly wanted to do this very second was kiss him again b-but-] I slept fine.. not like that floor was any better than our old bunks. [-more small talks the only thing he seems to muster, despite what cravings will continue to build up. It feels disrespectful (how odd?) to outright demand their date quicken to 'all the good parts' so rapidly.. Jean wants this date to matter, this is someone he cares a whollle lot about.]

Ah--.. Did you sleep alright, Marco? [Not that they hadn't all huddled together.] H-how was your day?

Y-yeah. It was nice, being with everyone. Felt a bit like being back at the barracks, right?

[ Truth be told, Marco was sleeping very well here, ever since he stopped worrying about titans and the constant threat of death. He suffered from the occasional nightmare (who could forget being half-eaten, after all,) but he wasn't about to worry Jean on what is essentially their first date. ]

It's been good! Um... I really like it here. It's so peaceful.

I like it here too, feels like the Interior. [They were trapped here, might as well laugh and play along. Whatever happened in the past, it wasn't the present. That's just how Jean was going to look at it for now.. after talking with Christa he's not sure if he's ready to hear everyone's story.]

You and me! You know, I can't lie, getting to know everyone now without all that stress of dying an't that bad. You're.. I always knew you'd be even- ah.. [-sweeter. Jean can't even say it, the words feel strange on his lips.] -more yourself, Marco.

[Picking at the skin around his fingernails, Jean's nervous. There's that thought again, that young teenage need] So, apparently, this streams got some huge ass monster fish in it.

Yeah, I bet this is what it would be like! Everything from the food, to the peace and quiet... we don't even have to fight against anything, either. [ Or at least that's how everyone says it is, in the Interior. The reality was different, too bad Marco never lived to see it. ]

It's so nice to have the chance to take it easy, isn't it? [ Marco blushes. He kinda gets what Jean's trying to say-- not that he minds being responsible or sacrificing, but not having to worry about that just gives him time to read and study and help people out. He really is a lot more sweet. ] I hope we can both still find room to grow here, even if it is the afterlife. You've still got so much potential in you, after all.

O-oh, really? [ Marco can't say he's too surprised by Jean changing the subject. This is Jean after all. ] Do you think people feed them or something...?

[Marco wants to watch him grow-- potential. Yeah, Jean felt like he had grown since coming here. Maybe from those powerful words Marco told him once, before they both showed up here. When they were making their way to the HQ.. hey, what can he say? Jean remembers them pretty clearly. Those felt so much more important than just a stroke to his ego..

When he got here it was just him and Bertholdt (and that Levi guy.) Needless to say Bert didn't have a clue what he was doing, kid was hopeless.. looking back on it, Jean had made a difference. It was wonderful filling the role of leader..] I don't know but I've heard it's massive, doesn't like to bother people though..

[Getting up, they should.. get moving, too much sitting was going to make Jean wanna- ah--...well, they shouldn't be sittin' around staring at each other anyway..] And uh- I will.. [The comment stated so quietly.. Jean knew he was still young, he'd grow but it was going to take time..]

That's so weird. [ Of course, Jean keeps talking about fish when Marco would just rather talk about Jean, that's just how he is. Marco smiles. He's glad to follow Jean, to have the chance to watch over him. Even past thinking he's cute and a loser-- a cute loser, of course, but it's all that potential that really drew Marco to Jean when they first met. ]

So, did you have anything planned for today? I've got snacks in my bag if you want.

I-I ah.. [Okay, maybe his plan of this 'date' wasn't all that thought out. Jean had mostly just wanted both of them alone to talk.. thinking most of those other kids to be anything but outdoorsy types..

He tried to explain himself on the trail leading down to the river.] Everything happened so fast last night.. and I um- I wanted to talk about it, I guess and stuff..

[Ultimately getting to the real issue once they were finally down under that huge bridge, not in anyone's direct view.. no one could hear them or listen in. Jean having nervously eaten into Marco supply of snacks while thinking up small talk before getting to the bare bone subject once they arrived at their destination.]

Ah, I-I see. [ That's more like Jean-- getting straight to the subject. Marco still has a bag of chips and is nibbling from it slowly, but he knows this is important to Jean. It's important to him too of course, but Jean is a man of words as well as actions. Marco's got no problems with that. ~~Though another kiss would be nice too.~~ ]

About... you liking me? Or me liking you?

[Yeah- Ah- feelings. Alright, Jean's actually gotta talk about them this time, no more running away..] U-umm- [Sitting closer to him, they could lean in close if they had too...]

I guess both, ah- [It was easy to say how badly he needed to talk about it but once face to face.] I've kinda always liked you..

[Yeah.. this would work, he'll take it from here..]

Yeah? [ Marco blushes. Hearing Jean admit that is... really great. Marco feels much the same, but he'll let Jean finish before cutting in. After all these things... well, they both know each other too well to need too many words, but it's good to get them out, right? ]

Really?

A-ahhh.. Yeah. [It's a little hard to tell your best friend you've had him in mind for your boyfriend. Come on, that has to sound a little weird.. right?] I guess, if anything, what really made me like you was.. Sure, you're always there to make me feel confident and stuff but those rare times it was the reverse... Your smile was rewarding or something, this is embarrassing..

I-I don't know.. [He kinda shifts awkwardly, Marco's just going to laugh..]

[ Marco does laugh, but it's not mocking or mean-- it's fond. Marco's always known Jean was a huge softy, he'd just never admit it, so hearing him now brings the warmest smile to Marco's face. ]

Thanks, Jean.

[ Marco reaches over, pressing a kiss to Jean's lips, chastely. He's so happy they can have this, without having to worry about stuff like monsters or titans. They can take it as slow as they want. ]

Is it my turn now?

[ Marco's much better with words, so you might want to hear this, Jean. ]

[He knew Marco was going to laugh.. at least it wasn't that mocking. Whatever 'shame' Jean could have felt over his honesty was silenced by the others lips, heart skipping a beat, still unable to keep the idea that this was Marco out of his mind.. Jean didn't want it to ever stop, something in him just questioned if he should let this happen sooner. For he hadn't lied and each time they'd kiss it bought this sense of warmth, like they were home but everything was going to be fine... like no one had died...

-that's all.

Cheeks stained red as he spoke.] Y-yeah, I'm ready..

Well, you know I've always admired your honesty, Jean. I've gotta say, the way you always stick to your beliefs is really admirable. Even when you know some would consider them cowardly or wrong, you stand by it. Plus, I know deep down, you still believe in what's good, no matter what.

That's what makes you so amazing, Jean. Even when you try to pretend you're tough or cool, inside you're just the same as everyone else. But you know that. You're weak and scared but you keep trying anyway. It's so amazing I just couldn't help falling for you.

Edited 2013-09-28 17:37 (UTC)

M-Marco.. [The way you worded that Jean could easily feel embarrassed but- 'I just couldn't help falling for you.'] You really like me, huh..? You sure you want it to be me?

[You're right, deep down.. Jean knows he's not something 100% special, it's what makes him so worried, Marco..] You know, I only fall for perfect people.. I guess that's my problem, huh? [Giving a weak smile, take some flirting.]

Of course, Jean! I'm really glad... that we have this opportunity, without having to worry about risking our lives all the time. Even if it's our second chance.

[ Of course, the 'perfect' comment makes Marco chuckle in embarrassment. ] Are you saying I'm perfect, Jean? Don't be silly...

Yeah, I am. Take the compliment, you ass, you sayin' I can't think you're perfect? [Using up some of his courage to pull Marco into a kiss, hand over the back of his neck keeping their kiss steady. When Jean pulls off Marco's lips he stays close..Emotional, he's not sure he's ready for something this committed with someone so close and yet--] Because.. I do.

Even with your flaws, or what few things you say that embarrassing the living hell out of me..

O-oh. [ Marco blushes, falling into the kiss easily as Jean pulls him in. He likes staying this close, loves the thought of having this with Jean. It really is perfect. ]

That's so... like you, Jean.

[ Saying embarrassing things like that and meaning every word. Jean really is the best, as far as Marco's concerned. ]

...So how long have you liked me? [They've shared a bed, Jean's a little unhealthy curious.] ........... and you think I'm hot too not just my personality or whatever, right? [r-right?]

W-well I don't think I could just... come up with a date or anything. And I think you're very handsome. And cute.

[ he knows what you're doing there, Jean. ]

How about you? Did you always like me?

[A grumbling, muttering something along the lines of 'I'm not cute'] I-I, well, I'm asking because-

[You know all those times Mikasa wouldn't give him the time of day or not laugh at his joke, or generally make him feel stupid and worthless with her reaction but you'd be right there Marco. Patting his back and giving him confidence to keep trying, never give up, make all those fake laughs at his bad jokes, or help him think of new ideas to stir up conversations with her, all that bullshit..

-At least someone thought he was smart, cool and funny. Why wouldn't you want someone that makes you feel so important in your life?] I long time.. I guess.. it's hard to come to terms with it. You're just as much my best friend as w-what we are now, you know?

Or do you just want me to be you boyfriend.. not your friend? I don't know what all this means, Marco..

I don't think dating has to change anything between us, Jean. I-I wouldn't want it to.

[ Though it's just like Jean to worry about big stuff like this as soon as they're starting. He always has the bigger picture in mind, and trips on the details the whole way there. ]

I trust you more than anyone else in the world. I'd never give that up. I respect you and I think you're really great and... m-maybe we shouldn't think too hard about this. That always was one of your weaknesses, Jean. It's cute how you have such trouble being happy.

[BLUSHES-- S-shut up, Marco! Don't be so.. cute..] I-I'm just worried, alright? [He wants to kiss him...] What if I did something or said something- [He really wants to kiss him...] that you weren't okay with? [He just!! Really!! wants to..!]

H-How can I not worry about it? Your- [Jean's not even sure how to express himself right now. So many conflicting new, strange, feelings boiling inside him. Is he being too sappy? To ignorant? Is there not enough feeling in his words, is he even understable?]

- so... important to me.. [Mouth stuck at the last word he spoke, parted with soft blushed cheeks.]

Then I'd tell you just like I always have, silly.

[ Marco leans in, laying his head on Jean's shoulder. Gosh, Jean. Don't freak out or anything, the more you do that, the cuter you look. ]

If we disagree, we'll talk about it. If something makes you worried or nervous or upset, you can talk to me about it. I'll always be here for you.

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject